I'm a Slacker Blogger but....

....I'm also 11 lbs lighter than I was when I started this journey in June! I feel really good. I've lost every week so far although some losses have been small like this week's 0.8. Honestly I've yet to be 100% OP but I'm doing most of it well and I guess every little change adds up.

Today my cardio dance instructor was a half hour late due to car trouble. I assumed he'd just teach a shorter class so I ran on the treadmill for 20 minutes and then took the class which ended up being an hour long. I'll be sore tommorrow. I haven't run in long time.

Today's WW meeting addressed why WW should not be treated as a "diet" and we discussed all the benefits of giving up our self-destructive behaviors. It all makes so much sense but I just know how I get when I REALLY want something I don't have the points for. I still have to find better ways to distract myself.

I'm so nervous about my upcoming job interview. It almost helps to be doing WW right now as that is something I really can control while other things are so up in the air. I hope for a super good WI next week to feel empowered somehow before interviewing.

Another lb gone and 5%

I lost another lb today. WW website recognizes this as my 5% body weight loss but as for my meetings I have another 0.2 to go. I'm not one to put off celebrating anything so I decided to take myself to the Clinique counter today and celebrate 5% with some new makeup to play with.

Last night I watched "What Not To Wear". One had an episode with a woman who was shopping after a 30 lb weight loss. I can't wait to experience that once I make goal. I have a way to go. For now makeup is fun because it doesn't matter what size you are. I went to bed early last night so not to go over points before WI. I was so hungry all night that I had trouble sleeping. I'm having a hungry day today which is not good as I'm going out to dinner tonight and should be saving points for that.

3 years ago tonight I got engaged. How is it that 3 years could go by so unbelieveably fast? In that time we've gotten married, went to Hawaii for HM, Jamaica for 1st anniversary, bought our dream house and sold our old (DH's) house. I'm hoping the next year or 2 stays calm and relatively uneventful and finds me at goal and us out of debt with increased savings.

New #s and less points

So I'm out of the 170s decade now. Barely but still....

I lowered my points target from 26 to 23 today. One was for the weight loss into a new decade of #s (yay for the surprise 2 lb loss) and the other 2 points I lowered because work has been frighteningly slow so I'm not walking around as much. Should I have a busy day I figure I'll allow myself 25 points if I REALLY feel like I need that and my WPA and APs are gone. I'm one of those who uses everything I'm entitled to.

I posted my new stats publicly on the WW boards. I feel very out of it there these days as I'm there so sporatically and often cannot follow what is going on with everyone. I figure I'll at least stick around when I can as I lose this weight.

I feel better already when I'm exercising now. I didn't think I was doing badly before but I feel like I'm moving much better even though I've only lost 7.8 lbs and I've got so much more to go. I haven't needed to use my inhaler as much either.

It's gone!

Old house was officially sold today. I'm more relieved than I thought I would be. Now I can finally start really focusing on and enjoying this house.

It was sad to go back for the last time on Saturday. I think I'm over it now though.

I have not been so great OP with being off from work and too many July 4th festivities. Tonight we are going out to celebrate the house sale. Back OP tomorrow and I'll be facing the scale on Saturday.

Bye Bye Old House

So the closing for DH's house is Monday at 10 AM. We've waited for this for so long. It will be nice to have only one house with one set of bills.

Although it is costing us dearly to sell we upgraded both our area and our home a great deal. I love, love, LOVE where we live now and don't ever plan to move again. We did get an amazing deal on our present home. Still it's sad for me to see this one go. So many memories - I remember going there when DH and I first started dating. I went to a party he had and remember being so nervous because I knew no one and barely knew him at that point. The first real kiss was there as well as the first time DTD. I remember being there after I became engaged at a nearby restaurant. I remember being there when we got ready for our wedding together totally ruining the "don't see each other before" thing when my BP came late, the photographer was in the driveway and I was in my PJs. Both DH and BFF had to help me into my dress fast. It all worked out though and made for some great memories. Our first night married was in that house.

I also remember hosting various holidays there. My cat Licorice died in that house last June and was buried in the back yard. We also found my cat Purl as a stray kitten in that same backyard. I always called Licorice "The best cat in the whole world" and now I call Purl the same. I lost an extra special cat and gained one in my 2 years living there.

I plan to officially "say goodbye to the house" briefly on Saturday. I need to focus on the future. That area is going down fast with what has happened with the economy. Tons of foreclosures. I won't miss the loud rap music or knowing that someone was shot and killed 3 houses down last month. There was also another nearby murder last May which is what prompted us to look at houses in safer neighborhoods.

I'm thinking I tend to hold onto things too long and maybe live in the past a little too much?

Reminder to self: Eat only when you are hungry

So I lost 0.6 today at WI. 5.8 lbs total loss. Should have been more of a loss but I let myself go over points later in the week mostly due to work stress.

I shouldn't let work get to me so much. Thing is I always saw myself as a career kind of girl. I'm realizing now I'm really just stuck in a job as opposed to a career with nowhere to go. I'm wishing I could do better for myself but I don't know what the right career is. I also can't help feeling I'm too old to make major changes. Really are student loans a good thing to start at age 40?

I always knew I wouldn't have kids somehow and in a way I'm even surprised (pleasantly so) that I'm married. I figured this would free me up to really make something of my life career wise. I feel as clueless as most high school seniors do but without youth on my side.

I hope I find a rewarding career path for myself someday soon. If not I hope I can learn to be okay with just being my clueless self.

I'm hoping as I find my best body under all this fat I'll also find my true desires and abilities. Time will tell.

I got a Star today!

My first 5 lb star since rejoining WW. So I've lost 5.2 lbs in 2 weeks. Not bad. I try not to think about how far I have to go. I hope to be at goal by May of 2010 which is when I'm aiming for DH and I to be rid of all debt besides mortgage (with some savings although not as much as I'd like).

Although both goals are different they both require sacrificing immediate gratification to live better in the long term. I need to avoid buying unneccessary things (wants versus needs) as well as avoid eating things that I don' t need. I've learned that I can be much more active on much less food. Even if I do get a little hungry it isn't the end of the world. It's slightly uncomfortable as is being tired but I survive. I wouldn't let it get to the point where I'm shaky but I don't pass out or become unable to function when I'm hungry. I'm " just hungry" like being "just tired". Life goes on...